How is it with your soul?
To say that there is anxiety surrounding The United
Methodist Church these days is an understatement. There have been issues
of how we will be in ministry with LGBTQ+ persons for decades and it seems to be
leading toward formal division.
Within the United States, we have difficulty discussing
sexuality. When I meet with couples who are planning to marry, the most
uncomfortable part of our discussion is when I bring up sex. I would
guess that a lot of this comes from a fear that I will judge them. But
sometimes I can see that they have difficulty discussing it with one
another. And so, here we have a topic (sexuality) that is difficult for
many of us to talk about even with the people with whom we are most intimate. And this is the topic on which our denomination will make us categorize ourselves? Now pastors, go and lead your church through
this!
Earlier this week, I attended the clergy orders meeting for
the Oklahoma Conference and Bishop Nunn's material was striking and insightful. He
suggested that United Methodists have been engaged in a civil war with one
another and that we are likely experiencing post traumatic stress disorder
(PTSD). He quotes Edward Tick from
War
and the Soul:
“The common therapeutic model . . . misses the point that
PTSD is primarily a moral, spiritual, and aesthetic disorder – in effect, not a
psychological but a soul disorder. All of its aspects concern dimensions
of the soul, inasmuch as the soul is the part of us that responds to morality,
spirituality, aesthetics and intimacy.”
After serving as a delegate to the 2019 General Conference,
I have often joked that I have PTSD as a result from my time there. Sometimes
our humor is a thinly veiled stab at the truth.
I actually was diagnosed with high blood pressure shortly
after serving as a delegate to the 2016 General Conference in Portland.
To be fair, some of this is genetic as my father was also diagnosed around my
age. But I think the timing is not just coincidental.
Recently, I was on the phone with a Wespath health
coach (part of our new benefit package this year) and I asked her if she knew
about the upcoming General Conference. She did not. I suggested
that the stress of this might be affecting clergy health in the coming months
and that they might want to make a note for those coaches handling United Methodist
clergy. For any conference leadership out there, don't be surprised to
see an increase in health issues for the clergy you supervise in the coming months.
Part of the stress that I realized in myself is dealing with
grief. I've been no stranger to grief lately in my life. Both my
parents died in 2018 (my mother in the spring and my father in the fall) and I
thought it would be helpful in dealing with this grief by going to St Louis in
February of 2019.
Sarcasm aside, we think about our most common emotions in
dealing with grief from the research of Elisabeth Kübler-Ross when she studied
how people dealt with being told they had a terminal illness. Anyone
dealing with loss seems to encounter at least some of these:
As a United Methodist elder, a large part of my identity
comes through the credentialing I received through the denomination. That
sounds rather clinical. Bishops laid their hands on my head and ordained
me to set my life aside in order to do this work on behalf of Jesus Christ
through The United Methodist Church. I think the sadness I feel when
thinking about a split in said denomination is warranted, don't
you?
Within systems theory, we remember that systems resist
change. Separation is one of the largest changes we have ever attempted
(I would say the largest but our denomination has walked this road
before). Systems theorists also might say that our strategy is to cut-off
one another emotionally rather than deal with our conflict over sexuality (not
healthy). Others might argue that the denomination keeps us emotionally
fused within our conflict because we aren't allowed to leave (also not
healthy). Both are likely correct.
And so the pastors have to deal with all of this movement
toward separation. Questions from the congregation might be: Is a split going to happen? What will happen to our local church? If there is a split, which direction would our church go? Pastor, what is your position on all this?
Is your blood pressure rising yet? Most congregations within the Oklahoma Conference have people on
both sides of this issue. While urban areas have multiple churches that will allow
people to select a pastor or church that fits more closely with their beliefs
(and thus further polarizing our nation), the rural areas don't have this
possibility. There are no alternatives at least within Methodism.
What happens when a clergy person is leading a church where the majority of membership opposes the pastor's beliefs?
|
My first time addressing General Conference in 2008. It might be telling to measure the vital signs of those speaking! |
As stressful as this is, I think our extension ministers
have it even worse. Their employment may not be able to continue as the
funding for these positions shrinks and vanishes. And if their position
goes away, will there be any appointments at the local church to be
had?
This is an adaptive problem rather than a technical
one. Adaptive problems are stressful by their nature because we are
traveling in new territory. We don't do well in facing this kind of
problem in isolation. I am fortunate because I serve a church where two
other clergy are appointed. There are also multiple retired and extension
ministers related to our charge. We talk it through. It helps us to
not only problem-solve but to encourage each other.
During the previously-mentioned orders meeting, I was
speaking to many of my colleagues who do not have this advantage. They
are isolated in rural areas. It feels like being on an island. This
does not help them to deal with an already stressful situation! But one
of our strengths is our connectionalism. As United Methodists, our origins
arise from John Wesley's class meetings where they would ask one another,
How is it with your soul?
I believe that at this time, it is crucial for our clergy
serving in appointments as the sole pastor to form covenant groups with one
another. I would suggest four to a group. Meet online.
Use
zoom or some other
group video chat software. It doesn't cost anything. Meet weekly
for 30-60 minutes. Try to covenant to quit after an hour. If
someone needs more time than that, it may be that a therapist is a good
option. Within the Oklahoma Conference, we get eight free sessions
through our health care with the
Employee Assistance Program. And as a helping
professional, don't be a hypocrite by refusing to get help after you have
referred people in your church for counseling!
Make sure you don't dominate the time. Everyone should
have time to speak.
I would suggest like-mindedness. Centrists meet with
centrists, progressives with progressives, traditionalists with
traditionalists. The reason for this is that you don't want to end up
debating with one another or even feeling defensive toward feelings
shared. This is time for supporting one another. Of course,
ultimately you should do what is helpful to you.
I'm not opposed to crossing theological lines for covenant
groups (there would be great value in this) but that is not the rationale for
this proposal.
Ask the question, "How is it with your
soul?" Let each one answer as they will and see where it takes
them.
Ask the question, "Where are you encountering
difficulty this week with regards to GC 2020 (or the issues surrounding
separation, LGBTQ+ inclusion, etc.)?
Ask the question, "Where have you seen resurrection
this week?"
Finally, are you facing any unique challenges at your
appointment that you would like to bounce off the group?
Don't use things you hear as sermon illustrations without
permission! Pastoral privilege should apply.
While this is designed for clergy, I would think that laity
may also find this helpful. Especially those heavily invested in
leadership such as lay delegates, lay staff members, lay leadership in the
church.
Remember the five stages of grief. It is helpful for
us to self-identify which stage we may be in (they fluctuate). And if you
are laity reading this, as you self-identify your stage, you might think of how this influences how you are relating to your pastor. Be nice to your pastors even if you disagree with them. They
did not invent this conflict as much as they inherited it. If we are
angry, we tend to blame the elders who are in charge of interpreting the
Discipline for our local church (just as pastors blame superintendents and
bishops).
And clergy, let us remember that we are smart, well-educated people. We are
able to move through even this and continue to answer our calling to make
disciples of Jesus Christ for the transformation of the world. If you can
make it through the credentialing process, you can get through this! This
latest challenge is a part of a larger movement in post-Christendom. If
we were not experiencing decline in overall Christianity across the United States (putting stress at the general and conference levels), I don't think we would be at this crossroads
right now. But here we are.
The world doesn't need us any less. In fact, I would
argue that a Wesleyan interpretation of Christianity is exactly what the world
needs. I am confident that you will continue to make a difference no
matter what the General Conference brings!
Blessings to all and may God continue to bless the work you
do!
In Christ,
Sam